Seeking

What am I looking for? What interests me? I need to seek out and connect those disparate paths of my mind. I thought that doing the work I do now would join it all in one, big, harmonious jumble. Instead I feel alternately stressed or bored. There is no mental stimulation from applying accounting rules. There is the daily fatigue of simply doing mental work, but it is not invigorating nor challenging in the least.

A graduate degree? For what? Why? To benefit whom? An end in and of itself, perhaps, instead of a means to an end. I am meant for better and bigger things than simply, accountant. But all of the paths seem wrong. Artist? No... Professor? No.... Arts Manager? Not that either.....

The first step is to define the problem; then the solution will come henceforth.